head cold
november 18 @ 6:32 pm

Alexis is back. Dear god, she's back. I'm sitting in math and all of a sudden, I hear "Sara" coming from the door. Sure enough, when I look, Alexis is standing there. Shit, I think my heart stopped. My mouth dropped open, and I walked to the door. When I got out, I hugged her. I just started to cry. Damn, I don't know why, I just did. She told me of how when she got home, her grandparents said she was going for some "tests". Alexis refused to go, so they called the police on her. She was in a physche ward for ten days. Jogee is going to jail. And military court. I felt so bad. But thankful she's fucking alive.

EDiT 2: 1) I changed the layout. The colors are really..epileptic, but whatever. The image is awesome. 2) Wow. I dunno..I was reading Kate and Jeromey's blogs..it's so god damn sweet! They both say like how much they love eachother and..shit.. *sigh/cough* See, I don't know how to think anymore. I'm beginning to settle on one thing, though: love is "not my thing" quote and quote Amber. Fucking serious. And maybe it's true. Amber's better with guys, apparently. So is EVERY DAMN friend of mine..Kate, Chloe, Elyce, Amber (of course), Julia, Alexis (double of course), Candance, Jodie, Emily, Alexa (though she's been single for months, she's been out with a shitload of guys and has a admirable personality), Alicia, Josie, Alex, Ashleigh, Alexis, Ashley..yup yup fucking yup. All of those listed have a 'long term boyfriend' or have many admirers or, in some cases, someone driving themselves crazy for the girl. And here's me..alone.. I make myself so mad. I don't know why it has to be liek this and why I care so much. I mean..it seems like everytime I turn around I hear an "I love you" from someone to another. Everytime I call Amber, she's on the phone with Jon. I am the MOTHERFUCKING only one. The only one!! I mean, what's there to like about me? Eh?? I'm stark fucking raving mad. I'm a "gothic physcho whore bag". I'm "not hyper". I'm not a "guy-girl". All of these are direct quotes from people, things that my "friends" have said to my face. MY FACE. Fuck..I don't think people know what it feels like without that aset. Makes me want to die. I feel like..every guy hates me and that I'm going to live alone. Makes me think that everyone else is fake and I'm the only one who's real because love isn't. Isn't it? All I want is a guy to like me. Call me..sweet talk me..dance with me..protect me..*sigh*. I miss it. I crave it. ....help me please.... 3) SOON TO COME: 101 THINGS ABOUT ME.

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IM A BOUT TO BREAK are the words that ring in your
head. They've pushed you to your breaking point
and you gonna let it all out right now. Scream
" SHUT UP WHEN IM TALING TO YOU "and
finally be heard this time.


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