january 14 @ 7:25 pm
Been a long time since I've actually updated, so I'll fill you all in with the sketchy details.
1) I've been officially called fat three times in my life. I had recently gotten new jeans and Ugg-type boots (along with tons of other shit) and the jeans were stretchy but kind of tight. Anyway, I tucked them into my boots and I thought I looked cute..I had my blackatude on (omg, I just had to say that, sorry..I'm not racist)..but apparently Joe thought I looked fat. That's what he told Kyle and Kyle told me. I got pissed off. I called him every name I could think of originating off of "fag". That happened..god a week or two or three ago. I dunno. All I can say now is FUCK YOU JOE!!
2) Amber has made out with Jon. I'm not sure if I'd mentioned this before, but she went to his house, got drunk and made out multiple times. Now, it's like no big deal. She goes to them movies with him. "How were the movies?" "Same old, same old." *sigh* That screams slutty, I'm sorry.
3) Julia, Alexa, and I have become really close friends. They all live like right next door to me, and I've been going to hang out at their houses like every day. But alot of that ties into the next number..
4) My god, the dance. Let me start from the begining. Julia was going to have Cadance and me over after school to chill before the dance. I ended up riding home with them. We stopped by my house to get my new clothes for the dance, and my makeup to touch up. We had a great time at Julia's and we found some old shirts of hers for Cadance to wear. Then we went to Alexa's and stayed there for awhile, then went back to get our stuff for the dance. After, we picked Alexa and this other girl up and went to the dance. It was raining, but sure enough, there was Amber, waiting for Jon. I went inside and found Elyce and got my shoes off and loitered until everyone got there. Then, we went onto the floor. The DJ was still great. The songs were a good mix..they even played ACDC. Cooper and Cameron were running everwhere with many others of the guys, but I didn't pay much attention until there was a slow song. Now, I had always thought Cooper was kind of hot. Cameron was dancing with Jodie, so we both kind of started to, but the song turned fast, so we dropped. I was estatic. I had danced with someone!!..sort of. I waited until the end of the dance to ask him again. We danced a little through "Photograph" but it wasn't that good of a slow song, so I went on to dance with my girlfriends and Cameron, for like thirty seconds. THEN, it was the last song. Really slow. I kind of him-hawed around until about a minute into the song when I grabbed him and said, "Come on, dance with me. I just don't want to be standing around." He agreed and it was..great. We danced the rest of the song. I thought him and I were getting closer, but that might have been me caught up in the moment. We talked a little. When the song ended, he hugged me. Cooper's much taller than me, so it didn't just..happen just like that. I was so happy. Joe just..melted away. Fuck him. I had just found someone that was much better. Alexa grabbed Brandon's hand and said to him, "You're supposed to hold her hand!" though Brandon and she weren't technically. So we did. It was like holding hands with my dad, Cooper's hands were so big. I said bye and went along out. I got seperated from my group and was walking past the juice machine when he was coming from the hallway..not parallell..at a 90 degree angle to it. He stopped when he saw me and walked with me back to the seventh grade hall.
In the car, Julia and Alexa were all over me and Cadance, as she danced with a guy Eddie that she had liked for a long time. Alexa told me that she said something like, "Wow, Cooper, you sure did good." while we were dancing and he was like, "Yeah." and smiled. "I think you two should go out." declared Julia. "Yeah, I think he likes you, Sara. You and him would make a cute couple." God damn..I realized..I might actually like him.
So yes. I am saying it. I'm really shy about it like I was with the fucker, but I'm more headstrong. I like him. Not like alot or anything, but I do. I really want to go out with him, but I'm just going to let things run their course.
Should I say hi to him? Should I like flirt around and ask to wear his sweatshirt and stuff?? Amber would say I should, and I think so also, but I'm not going to be hanging up on him like Alexis did. He couldn't wait to break up with him.
So I'm on a happy note. I think me and him could have a chance.
5) We all had a total girlfriend moment in the car ride home. I was saying how I was starting to like him, but I was kind of afraid to go out with him because I didn't want to get hurt. Apon that, they all said how they would always be there for me and how we were BFF's and..omg, I almost started crying. It was the perfect end to an excellent night..I'm friends with everyone. I felt so loved.
And so I am happy. Not erratically, but happy. And I hope it stays that way.
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